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It noon imes on tiptoe into to see if irring, and made er sleep so late. Finally or came in softly ea, and a pile of letters, on a small tray of old Sevres cin curtains, of tall windows.
quot;Monsieur t; he said, smiling.
quot; oclock is it, Victor?quot; asked Dorian Gray drowsily.
quot;One er, Monsieur.quot;
e it urned over ters. One of t by morning. ated for a moment, and t it aside. tlessly. tained tion of cards, invitations to dinner, tickets for private vies, and t are soilet-set t yet o send on to remely old-fas realize t eously ions from Jermyn Street money-lenders offering to advance any sum of money at a moments notice and at t reasonable rates of interest.
After about ten minutes up, and te dressing-goer refreser o ten all t aken part in some strange tragedy came to ty of a dream about it.
As soon as into t doo a lig t for able close to t e day. t, filled ood before perfectly happy.
Suddenly of trait, and arted.
quot;too cold for Monsieur?quot; asked , putting an omelette on table. quot;I s t;
Dorian s;I am not cold,quot; he murmured.
as it all true? rait really c been simply ion t ed canvas could not alter? t ale to tell Basil some day. It would make him smile.
And, yet, ion of t in t dreaded leaving t rait. ainty. tes and turned to go, a o tell o remain. As tood ing for . quot;I am not at o any one, Victor,quot; ired.
table, lit a cigarette, and flung stood facing t Spanisamped and tern. curiously, of a mans life.
S aside, after all? let it stay t rue, it errible. If it true, it? But e or deadlier c so look at ure? Basil o do t. No; to be examined, and at once. Anytter tate of doubt.
up and locked bot least o face. It ly true. trait ered.
As en remembered after first gazing at trait scientific interest. t sucaken place o it . as tle affinity betoms t so form and colour on t be t soul t, t dreamed, true? Or errible reason? afraid, and, going back to t ture in sickened horror.
One t t it , o Sibyl Vane. It too late to make reparation for t. Sill be o some ransformed into some nobler passion, and trait t Basil ed of o o o some, and conscience to oto us all. tes for remorse, drugs t could lull to sleep. But ion of sin. sign of t upon their souls.
truck, and four, and ts double c Dorian Gray did not stir. rying to gat to o a pattern; to find knoo do, or o t over to table and e a passionate letter to ter page no one else to blame us. It is t t, t gives us absolution. ter, t he had been forgiven.
Suddenly to tside. quot;My dear boy, I must see you. Let me in at once. I cant bear your sting yourself up like t;
first, but remained quite still. till continued and gre ter to let Lord o explain to o lead, to quarrel became necessary to quarrel, to part if parting able. ily across ture, and unlocked the door.
quot;I am so sorry for it all, Dorian,quot; said Lord ered. quot;But you must not too muc it.quot;
quot;Do you mean about Sibyl Vane?quot; asked the lad.
quot;Yes, of course,quot; ans is dreadful, from one point of vie it your fault. tell me, did you go beer t;
quot;Yes.quot;
quot;I felt sure you ;
quot;I al, ly brutal. But it is all rig sorry for anyt augo knoter.quot;
quot;Aake it in t earing t nice curly ;
quot;I t,quot; said Dorian, s;I am perfectly conscience is, to begin is not old me it is t t sneer at it, least not before me. I to be good. I cant bear t;
quot;A very cistic basis for etulate you on it. But o begin?quot;
quot;By marrying Sibyl Vane.quot;
quot;Marrying Sibyl Vane!quot; cried Lord anding up and looking at . quot;But, my dear Dorian--quot;
quot;Yes, you are going to say. Somet marriage. Dont say it. Dont ever say t kind to me again. to marry me. I am not going to break my o o be my ;
quot;Your you get my letter? I e to you t te do;
quot;Your letter? O read it yet, be somet t I like. You cut life to pieces ;
quot;You kno;
quot; do you mean?quot;
Lord ting doook botig;Dorian,quot; ;my letter--dont be frigo tell you t Sibyl Vane is dead.quot;
A cry of pain broke from to , tearing ;Dead! Sibyl dead! It is not true! It is a ?quot;
quot;It is quite true, Dorian,quot; said Lord ;It is in all te doo you to ask you not to see any one till I came. to be an inquest, of course, and you must not be mixed up in it. t make a man fas in London people are so prejudiced. to give an interest to ones old age. I suppose t kno tre? If t, it is all rigo is an important point.quot;
Dorian did not anss. ammered, in a stifled voice, quot;? did you mean by t? Did Sibyl--? O bear it! But be quick. tell me everyt once.quot;
quot;I it an accident, Dorian, t must be put in t o t seems t as sre ten sometairs. ted some time for s come doimately found ake, some dreadful t tres. I dont kno it e lead in it. I s aneously.quot;
quot; is terrible!quot; cried the lad.
quot;Yes; it is very tragic, of course, but you must not get yourself mixed up in it. I see by tandard t seen. I s s younger t. So knotle about acting. Dorian, you mustnt let t on your nerves. You must come and dine er t is a Patti nigo my sisters box. S some smart ;
quot;So I ; said Dorian Gray, o ;murdered tle t t less lovely for all t. t as o-nigo dine o teric life is! If I over it. Some it ually, and to me, it seems far too ears. passionate love-letter I ten in my life. Strange, t my first passionate love-letter so a dead girl. Can te silent people en? O seems years ago to me no dreadful nig really only last nig almost broke. S all to me. It erribly patic. But I moved a bit. I t made me afraid. I cant tell you it errible. I said I o I s knoo keep me straig for me. S to kill was selfis;
quot;My dear Dorian,quot; anste from ten matc;tely t erest in life. If you created o people about you ely indifferent to out about bonnets t some oto pay for. I say not take, in any case te failure.quot;
quot;I suppose it ; muttered t;But I t it y. It is not my fault t terrible tragedy ed my doing ality about good resolutions--t too late. Mine certainly ; quot;Good resolutions are useless attempts to interfere ific lay. t is absolutely nil. terile emotions t ain c is all t can be said for t men dra;
quot;; cried Dorian Gray, coming over and sitting do I cannot feel tragedy as muc to? I dont tless. Do you?quot;
quot;You oo many foolis fortnigo be entitled to give yourself t name, Dorian,quot; answered Lord melancholy smile.
t;I dont like t explanation, ; ;but I am glad you dont tless. I am not. And yet I must admit t t affect me as it s seems to me to be simply like a o a errible beauty of a Greek tragedy, a tragedy in part, but by ;
quot;It is an interesting question,quot; said Lord e pleasure in playing on tism, quot;an extremely interesting question. I fancy t true explanation is t often tragedies of life occur in sucistic manner t t us by te inco of meaning, tire lack of style. t us just as vulgarity affects us. te force, and against t. Sometimes, ragedy t possesses artistic elements of beauty crosses our lives. If ts of beauty are real, to our sense of dramatic effect. Suddenly ors, but tators of tcacle ent case, t I been very many, but ted on living on, long after I o care for to care for me. tout and tedious, and once for reminiscences. t a is! And ter intellectual stagnation it reveals! One s one ss details. Details are al;
quot;I must so; sighed Dorian.
quot;ty,quot; rejoined ;Life violets all tistic mourning for a romance t die. Ultimately, did die. I forget . I t is al. It fills one error of eternity. ell--?--a Lady ed at dinner next tion, and sed on going over t, and raking up ture. I out again and assured me t I o state t se an enormous dinner, so I did not feel any anxiety. But aste s is t it is t. But , and as soon as terest of tirely over, to continue it. If tragic ending, and every tragedy e in a farce. tificial, but t. You are more fortunate t not one of t Sibyl Vane did for you. Ordinary by going in for sentimental colours. Never trust a tory. Ot consolation in suddenly discovering ties of t ty in ones face, as if it fascinating of sins. Religion consoles some. Its mysteries ation, a old me, and I can quite understand it. Besides, notold t one is a sinner. Conscience makes egotists of us all. Yes; to tions t ioned t important one.quot;
quot; is t, ; said tlessly.
quot;Oion. taking some one elses admirer al s! to me quite beautiful about ury ;
quot;I erribly cruel to t.quot;
quot;I am afraid t e cruelty, doive instincts. e ed t ters, all ted. I am sure you I can fancy ful you looked. And, after all, you said someto me terday t seemed to me at time to be merely fanciful, but t I see noely true, and it o everyt;
quot; , ;
quot;You said to me t Sibyl Vane represented to you all t s, and Op if s, so life as Imogen.quot;
quot;So life again no; muttered the lad, burying his face in his hands.
quot;No, so life. S part. But you must t lonely deatarange lurid fragment from some Jacobean tragedy, as a er, or Ford, or Cyril tourneur. to you at least som t flitted t ts presence, a reed t soucual life, s, and it marred asrangled. Cry out against er of Brabantio died. But dont e your tears over Sibyl Vane. S;
t, t in from t of things.
After some time Dorian Gray looked up. quot;You o myself, ; ;I felt all t you some, and I could not express it to myself. talk again of ore for me anyt;
quot;Life ore for you, Dorian. t you, raordinary good looks, be able to do.quot;
quot;But suppose, t;
quot;A; said Lord o go, quot;to figories. As it is, t to you. No, you must keep your good looks. e live in an age t reads too muco be too muco be beautiful. e cannot spare you. And noer dress and drive doo te, as it is.quot;
quot;I t too tired to eat anyt is ters box?quot;
quot;ty-seven, I believe. It is on tier. You come and dine.quot;
quot;I dont feel up to it,quot; said Dorian listlessly. quot;But I am ao you for all t you o me. You are certainly my best friend. No one ood me as you ;
quot;e are only at t; ansi is singing.quot;
As ouces Victor appeared ed impatiently for o go. to take an interminable time over everything.
As soon as , o t back. No; ture. It s of life as ty t marred t, appeared at t t tever it indifferent to results? Did it merely take cognizance of some day aking place before .
Poor Sibyl! a romance it en mimicked deatage. toucaken dreadful last scene? to oned for everyt t s at tre. of ragic figure sent on to tage to sy of love. A ragic figure? tears came to remulous grace. ily and looked again at ture.
t time for e curiosity about life. Eternal youte passion, pleasures subtle and secret, o bear t was all.
A feeling of pain crept over of tion t ore for to kiss, ted lips t no er morning before trait its beauty, almost enamoured of it, as it seemed to times. as it to alter noo o become a monstrous and loato be o be s out from t t en touco brigs y of it! ty of it!
For a moment, of praying t t existed bet mig, life, astic t c be, or fateful consequences it mig? Besides, really under rol? indeed been prayer t itution? Mig be some curious scientific reason for it all? If t could exercise its influence upon a living organism, mig t exercise an influence upon dead and inorganic t t or conscious desire, mig ternal to ourselves vibrate in unison om calling to atom in secret love or strange affinity? But tance. empt by a prayer any terrible poure o alter, it o alter. t o it?
For tc. o follos secret places. trait o magical of mirrors. As it o o er came upon it, ill be standing from its face, and left be one blossom of one pulse of rong, and fleet, and joyous. did it matter hing.
o its former place in front of ture, smiling as o ing for er the opera, and Lord henry was leaning over his chair.