I am not surprised at side my is only by living, as top story, t one comes to kno t rays, and t aterfly sometimes ventures among ttic,and t trious he dawn of day.
tories are still deep in sleep, silence, and s, and song already reign.
life is around me! See turning from s for ful urns to feeling and to motion; ion, and brings it to life again, as truck ty in t is a moment ofrest from every misery; ters into ts of t, alas! itis but a s respite! Everyts ed course:
t s long strains, its deep gasps, itscollisions, and its cras in motion.
tranquillity of t morning of ourfirst years of life. too, tly, t, and tude, o be ties: atstarting, so readily made ed; and at tter disappointment or reality! ts or in precipices! first, so muc at last? to make it unfit for happiness?
Must o ignorance if er all, to find rest only inan eternal childhood?
imes ions! Solitude age or tinually searcotion to tion; called to turn it tot s anotary inclination makes us return forever to knock at thesame doors!
I interrupted my reflections to put my attic in order. I e t sempt for details or anunaptness for spiritual life. to arrange to live, is to establision of property and of use bet is to lay tion of ts o tate. , in fact, is social organization but aseries of s, settled in accordance ions of ournature?
I distrust botellect and ty of to able.
surrounds us, reflects more or less t ill t around. If our tastes did not reveal ourcer, tastes, but instincts.
tic, my eyes rested on ttle almanac ten in large letters: quot;FEtE DIEU!quot;
It is to-day! In t city, o remind us of it; but it is,in trutive c;t in or,quot; says Ceaubriand, quot; a time ties;t a single in t;
recollections t a off , I leaned my elbo to ttle town w daysof my childhood were passed.
te Dieu events of my life! It o be diligent and obedient a long time beforeo deserveto s. I still recollect raptures of expectation Igot up on tapestry, along treets. I from one to anoturns admiring religious scenes of tions of ttles in tyle of Louis XIV,and tomsseemed to be coming fort of past ages, to assist--silentand motionless--at ternately in fear and terrible iful resses sing t tin breece at t oftually smiling simes, seemed to me t tco see tacake t transitory. t predominated over everyot of an overflo quiet joy. In t of all ting draperies, ttered flotransported in spite of yourself. tival ed in your , in a t, more only manifesting, but also hin us.
And tars for triump competition among tparision of ting-places e t and t beautifulof his possessions!
It sacrifice!
ted, and tabernacle dressed one ing fit to cro ree givenme by my motc for several monto bloree. t , t of sucations, and of all acated for some moments. No one ; I mig. I s onerose noiselessly I alone to keep back my treasure? Ougo grudge to God one ofts t I plucked tem, and took it to put attop of tabernacle. Aion of t so s to me, now make me smile?
Is it so certain t t is in itself, ratention? If ter in tot to tus not look do of generosity; it is tom to self-denial and to sympatime as a sacred talisman; I o cal victory won over myself.
It is nonessed tion of teDieu; but s tions of former days?
I still remember reets streintoxicated by totouc along. I smiled at everyt seemed to me t God ingin the air!
Moreover, t tement of t: it migense on certain days, but at time it continued t, and a trustfulness from coming, at least from staying being alone,I soon took again, like ts courage, becauseit s mot t confidence ofmy c God is here?
range tion of our ts! A day of tions of my former years are gro I am no duties I peace ture to tiny. rusted to my o to make myselfmaster of it by means of a long insigo ture. I ies, by occupying my ts ure; I my judgment in to the anxious man.
A melanc perant lesson. ,if I rusted more to y? It may be t possible on condition of living like a coties of eac comes, and trusting in ther for all besides.
to strengt is good, I turn my ts to le expression of and sootects my life, and gives it ligoo, andmartyr ed out taugo see t.
But, except ting do, and tues willrecall ory.
ell! I e it, not for ot for myself! t,at t of ts itself and assumes a moredignified attitude: in tself raisedand ennobled by tion of a good mans life!
A ray of ts up ttle table on of tte, and t my terings. ts proper place amid thefragrance.
Seven oclock.--It is of my UncleMaurice ter. o t t die; but notanding ticipations, o live,suffering and deformed.
tractions ofc for y. In vain ttle o the world:
t its way.
ill o ted all t repelled by oter, and ake o content . ion roi is tax on provisions levied at trance of totle toll- trance of ive town.
up in t square, ion from ts but reading and s.
On fine summer days so t, under tis planted by Maurice. And, even ing-needles; rials; ionately on t bowed neck,and exch her!
t o be taken from to give up all tion names, ried to return o ansheforehead of her son, heave a sigh, and close her eyes forever!
tried to take Maurice a ed t noionless form.
quot;Dead!quot; cried ;dead! S me, s t;
A stifled voice replied:
quot;God!quot;
Maurice, startled, raised a last sig seek to kno ood ted it.
It I first kne to see tletoll-old me stories,and let me gaternalattractiveness, o all ed to everytlepatience; and cs of ioners, ed , quot;Fat ;
No oty, zeal, and intelligence; but t ed y. As rons, terable to make to be granting ting o live. UncleMaurice bore injustice as empt; unfairly treated by men,rusted in tice of be deceived.
not as forlorn as tle garret, into o recommend cion to it. So any ot.
S interest and relaxation; a depressing gloomseemed to envelop ion affected Maurice; tempted to speak to in fe o see t sude to ttle, and said no more.
But toinettes needle ly of everyt tradesmen refused to give .
ely to tely and engaged to pay ttoinette h.
t on in tinued out of il s last frig tracted o an explanation impulse o run toUncle Maurice, and tual reserve o a burst of deepest feeling. It seemed as if gratitude ed all t numbed .
Being no, ttle er efficacy to oinette became to er, for o provide. It timesince t o stentions s to dispel oucimes expressed topped. le bend over, but could not read. Intruttle to do so; o took toinette sucrials still toenjoy her company.
t insensibly took possession of o tomed to ty of to look onionate sympat more could iltable to a e co make it areality. After mucation ook courage, and decided to speak toher.
It tle ation, directed eps to just as to enter, range voice pronouncing toinette he dress of a sailor.
At t of my uncle, so :
quot;A is I t is Julien;it is my betrot;
Maurice tottered, and drew back. A single word old him all!
It seemed to to break;but t ill hisfriend!
toer ion to the suburb.
It not as o ting out for ry. y and ill-ice andforsaken by all, o him.
Eig ten ill noruction o live. Is it true t al? t beyond goodness, prudence,moderation, y, self-sacrifice itself, t trut misfortunes? and t, if man ues for others, he has need of religion for himself?
, as tureexpresses it, for ourselves; strong, o escape everystorm in spite of t later in life, c our arms, liketaken by nigo him who iseverywhere.
I yand for to some neorc continues to gro not because ent to s?
But s reveries signify to turmoils of most men are stifled by t givetime to question time to kno ts are in t lease ort price of stock? th.
But I--poor savage amid all tion, er of myspirit--I can go back y to tions of myc city no longer ival, I rive still to keep t to .